Midnight express.

I’ve finished Kafka on the Shore…

After finishing Kafka on the Shore, I feel slightly more confident about expressing myself. After reading the Goethe quote about how “everything’s a metaphor”, I realized I also said something along those lines while talking to Brandon. Of course Goethe and Murakami said it much better than I could, it was the same idea. Reading this novel helped me realize I under estimate myself too much. Too much being an under statement. I think starting the book in the hospital helped me understand it and appreciate it. In the hospital allowed much time to think about… well… anything there was to think about. I thought about my future (marrying Brandon, going to university/college), past (last month being in a different hospital), loved ones (mainly Brandon and mother/father), politics (GOP :( vs. Obama), Korea (the starving escaping refugees that almost no one knows about outside of Korea), cats (the calender rip outs of cats “hanging in there”) , dogs (therapy dog stealing the last comfortable chair), and almost everything else under the moon*. *I usually have dark thoughts, so I thought moon was more appropriate than sun. I want eloquent. I want to be able to get my point across. It takes practise, though.

I also need people to start seeing me as a mature adult. I am no longer the little sister that runs around saying weird things nor am I just a weird alien kid that might be a lesbian. I am Rebecca. I love Asian related things especially cinema. My favorite director is Wong Kar Wai, and of his films my favourite is Chungking Express (1994). I first started to get into Asian culture through Korea. My passion is refugee work (mainly North Korean deflectors). As to how I am going to pursue this passion, I am not sure. I plan on majoring in Chinese and minoring in linguistics at NC State.  I am a person with my own thoughts, and I would like that to be respected. If you can not respect me, then I don’t want you in my life. I am a frank person and I don’t like nor buy into appeasement.

I have matured over the past few months. I know I still have much to learn, but I still know quite a bit compared to the average Joe (people who conform to this horrid, stupid society).

Wong Kar wai’s dialoge somewhat comes from Haruki Murakami according to noted Asian cinema critic Tony Rayns on the Chungking Express commentary.

This means I have to finish Walden and No-no boy relatively quickly. 

I don’t like cooked carrots, only raw.

As I am picking through them to get to the peas, I remember the Great Gye Choon Bin. Good times with myself. Very good times, indeed.